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Nothing in the Universe Applies to Me

Posted: July 11th, 2010 | Author: | Filed under: Chat | Tags: , , , , | 4 Comments »

I wasn’t even trolling this time, guys!

This fellow was flirting with me for probably about… four days. I guess. Yesterday I told him that I thought things were going too fast, and that I’d like him to back up considerably. He seemed to amiably agree, requesting a hard-restart to friends. Great! I can work with that. He’s a reasonable fellow listening to reason! I can SO be friends with that.

Eh-heh. Sure.

So I’ve spent most of today sleeping. I got out of bed quite a bit past noon (I had a workout scheduled for today, but with all the running around and carrying of things I did for mom yesterday, I didn’t get anywhere near enough recuperation and I was just not willing to drug myself through a four-hour depletion workout. I took most of today reconfiguring the next few weeks into being a different workout setup now that I’ve mostly-recovered from Summerfest binging. Then I had dinner with mom and watched Still Walking with her, a great little Japanese slice-of-life flick that…)

…my point is I haven’t been checking my phone today. Haven’t been doing much on the computer other than referencing dietary stuff.

I just checked my phone when this fellow AIM’d me. He pretty obviously implied that I’d been ignoring him, yet the only text I’d gotten was a “Where are you?” about an hour or so ago.

(11:25:47 PM) Matte: I love being ignored
(11:26:03 PM) Eric: Cool. I’ll do that then.

Sarcasm isn’t lost on me, folks. I’m very reflective.

(11:26:13 PM) Matte: Even though I did nothing to you?
(11:26:14 PM) Matte: Nice
(11:26:27 PM) Matte: Way to be rude

…Right.

(11:26:45 PM) Matte: Not only are you a coward then, you also have zero social skills
(11:27:11 PM) Matte: Because all I ever wanted to do was be friends and you’re responding with this kind of abuse
(11:27:12 PM) Matte: =\
(11:27:22 PM) Eric: Abuse? Touchy.
(11:27:29 PM) Matte: What would you call it then

I was going to say ‘neglect,’ but that’s a passive form of abuse. So I let it slide. I didn’t directly contradict his usage here anyway, just jabbed him for being… touchy.

(11:27:30 PM) Matte: ?
(11:27:37 PM) Matte: I’ve done nothing to you but be nice
(11:27:38 PM) Matte: =]
(11:27:46 PM) Eric: I’ve not done anything at all.
(11:27:53 PM) Matte: Mhmm, indeed you have

Indeed I have or have not done something?

(11:28:10 PM) Matte: You’re obviously upset with me for some reason

This wouldn’t have been true if he hadn’t said it. Really. I wasn’t upset with him.

(11:28:16 PM) Eric: Huh?
(11:28:30 PM) Matte: You haven’t talked to me at all since the other night
(11:28:35 PM) Eric: What’s your point?
(11:28:35 PM) Matte: On purpose
(11:28:42 PM) Matte: You’re avoiding me
(11:28:48 PM) Matte: And you have no reason to
(11:30:05 PM) Matte: For someone who tries to so hard to be in control of his emotions, you certainly are very out of touch with them =\

Alex was better at psycho-analyzing me. I had no reason to avoid him, and I wasn’t. Now I do, and am. Way to win that one, buddy.

(11:30:05 PM) Eric: I haven’t avoided you. I wouldn’t have you unblocked on my buddy list if I was avoiding you. I would have removed you from our social sites if I was avoiding you. I’m aware I have zero social skills, and as such, I lack capacity for thought-out spite-induced dedicated neglect.

The last sentence is a blatant lie, but everything before that was true when I said it.

(11:30:55 PM) Eric: I’m not in control of anything. I’m not in touch with my emotions on purpose.
(11:31:04 PM) Matte: That’s a severe weakness
(11:31:17 PM) Eric: That doesn’t bother me.
(11:31:21 PM) Matte: You would do well for yourself to remedy that
(11:31:27 PM) Eric: I’m alright.
(11:31:32 PM) Matte: Are not
(11:31:33 PM) Matte: =]

I don’t like people who use emoticons ironically. Hipster trash.

(11:31:51 PM) Eric: If it means I get into paranoid fits whenever someone doesn’t respond to me, I’ll pass.
(11:32:16 PM) Matte: The fact that you would even say that makes me even more right
(11:32:23 PM) Matte: And proves how socially retarded you are
(11:32:37 PM) Eric: I don’t care if you’re right. That wasn’t the point I was making.
(11:32:43 PM) Matte: You have a point?
(11:32:46 PM) Matte: Get to it then
(11:32:58 PM) Eric: Go away. I’m not avoiding you, I just have better things to do.

What is the point of proving what a retard I am? Troll alert.

(11:33:08 PM) Matte: What are you being so hostile for?
(11:33:32 PM) Eric: You wanted me to get to the point. It just seems hostile because you don’t like it.
(11:33:40 PM) Matte: No, you’re being hostile
(11:33:50 PM) Matte: And quite rude
(11:33:56 PM) Eric: Then go away.

Seriously. If I’m infringing so heavily upon your well-being by having a life, well… shit man. I’ve been trolled so hard today. Good show.

(11:34:02 PM) Matte: Because you agreed that we were going to start over and try to be friends
(11:34:12 PM) Matte: But obviously you don’t want that
(11:34:19 PM) Matte: So make up your mind, NOW
(11:34:30 PM) Matte: Because I refuse to be jerked around by the likes of you
(11:34:33 PM) Eric: This is how I treat my friends. They realize I have a life, that I do other things than talk to only them, and they wait.
(11:35:00 PM) Eric: You don’t. And I don’t have time for you if you’re going to whine to me.
(11:35:14 PM) Eric: So knock it off or I will be consciously avoiding you.
(11:35:25 PM) Matte: I’ll do whatever the fuck I please
(11:35:30 PM) Eric: Then good day, sir.
(11:35:34 PM) Matte: No rules in any universe exist that apply to me
Matte is typing…

You are now blocking Matte.

Aw, crap man. I blocked him too fast. Oops.

You know, as much as I want to say he was a troll, he really doesn’t quite earn the honor. He’s a queen. The vast majority of gay men that I’ve flirted/dated have been enormously pleasant, even if it didn’t work out for us. This boy was angry and wanted to project his frustrations on me for being another one of his failures.

That sucks, ya’ll.

I didn’t set out to troll him, and I almost believe he wasn’t trying to inflict harm on me.

Almost.

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Happy Princess (P1C2B2)

Posted: June 17th, 2010 | Author: | Filed under: Body, Chat | Tags: , , , , , , , , , , | No Comments »

Went to the gym yesterday morning, finally having a dollar for the soda machine.

Fucker was shut off. Logic’d my way into walking across the parking structure under the assumption that, hey, they probably have these for fuckers heading to work. Bam. There it is.

Dollar was too crinkly. I smooth it several times before hoping I have a dollar in my wallet. I try THAT dollar, twice, before the machine lolquits at me (the dollar-accepting thing turns off if you try too many times to prevent sodahax.)

Top floor of parking structure is the one that leads to my gym. I give up my sodaquest and take this loop-way of getting to the gym. There’s one soda machine on this leg of the journey, and it too is shut down.

I make my way in, put my bag on a chair, and dig out my keys (login badge thing is on it) front desk lady is ALWAYS unfailingly nice to me. She asks me how I’m doing and I lie blatantly. She says she’s doing good too.

In the locker room. I’m already wearing gym clothes so I simply deposit my bag. I get some nail clippers out, clipping nails at a counter. I finish, I hear my phone, I go back to the locker. Check messages, okay whatever, back to the counter…

WHEN SUDDENLY, A DOUCHE APPEARS:

D- “Are you going to pick those up?”
Me- “…Why, do you need a snack?”
D- “That’s disgusting.”
Me- “Don’t judge me by what YOU put in YOUR mouth.”
Another guy comes into the locker room, puts a shaker-bottle thing on the counter, goes to his locker.
D- “Don’t use that counter, this kid put his nails all over it.”
Me- “Nevermind that bro, this old fart leaves cocks in his mouth and forgets to swallow.” I sweep the nails into a trash bin that’s put under the counter FOR THIS REASON “Are we happy, princess?”

I got shitty looks from him for the next hour or two I was in the gym.

Day was significantly improved.

Workout B2 for Wednesday, June 16, 2010

Romanian Deadlift

  1. 45lbs x 5
  2. 70 x 3
  3. 90 x 2
  4. 115 x 3
  5. 110 x 3
  6. 105 x 3

5% drops from top set because I didn’t want to increase reps from set to set. Took a note that I was stepping forward to rack the weight with my left foot.

Pulldown

  1. 40lbs x 5
  2. 55 x 3
  3. 75 x 2
  4. 95 x 4
  5. 85 x 5
  6. 75 x 6

10% drops, since this exercise is a 4-6 rep range anyway.

Lateral Raise Machine

  1. 30lbs x 5
  2. 45 x 3
  3. 60 x 2
  4. 75 x 4
  5. 65 x 5
  6. 55 x 6

10% drops, which are HUGE here since I round up. It’s supposed to be a back-off day.

Torso Rotation Machine

  1. 30lbs x 5
  2. 45 x 3
  3. 60 x 2
  4. 75 x 4
  5. 65 x 7
  6. 55 x 10

I actually had this load setup for doing weighted crunches, but I felt myself in a twisty mood. My obliques haven’t been worked lately and I was surprised that I just-as-barely got through them without altering the weights. 15% drops are harder to manage with such low weights. I piled on reps which, in retrospect, is an ass-backwards way of tackling that problem.

Cardio: 20 minutes, 3 incline/ 3.3mph; Heart Rate @ 135bpm @ finish. The ceiling is 150bpm so I can keep increasing the speed… whenever I manage 40 minutes.

Weight: 162lbs.

I was going to test body composition by the personal trainer dwarf snatched up the handzapper. So I’m going to save that for Monday.

Also Monday: I will be deciding how I’m going to progress with this diet. It’s been two cycles, so roughly four weeks. Typically I see folks have their diet phases lasting anywhere from 4-8 weeks unless they’re horrifyingly fatassed. I’m going to fast tomorrow and do some carb-depletion stuff over the weekend to try and dry-out before measuring on Monday.

Body Fat Percentage Results

  • 13%+: I’m just going to continue the diet for another cycle. No-prob-bro.
  • 11 – 13%: Diet break for one training cycle, then continue the diet and training as I have been.
  • <11%: Diet break for one training cycle, then I’m going change everything around to resemble Ultimate Diet 2.

I’ll probably round the results down if I have a convincing decimal or something, but that’s generally where my mind’s at.

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